The Abominable Struggle of the Soul

Life, thunderous and turbulent,
Shook by thoughts, intense and vehement,
Moves me on a path, crooked and bent
To just endure this, was I sent ?

Am struggling along the way,
To see some hope, a light, a ray.
Can someone kindly say
How to live each dooming day ?

Is there a solution, off the shelf,
That can better my life, my self ?
Why does the saviour ignore my call ?
Does He quietly smile at my sorrow and fall ?

Who says nothing affects the soul ?
My thoughts and hopes are dark as coal.
Each moment these thoughts go deep in,
The soul feels an abominable pain.

Drudgingly, I pull through each day,
Weary and glum, I traverse my way.
Where is the spark that will light my soul,
To make me cheerful, happy and whole.

Thoughts keep changing, much like the weather,
But the pain leaves a niche,
That the soul will always remember.
The soul will always remember.

Struggles are a part of life they say,
But what is this life which is an incessant struggle !
Every moment in life that I really want to treasure,
Is preluded with a struggle....and that,
Doesnt give me any pleasure.

Nothing comes easy ever,
And fate never favours, never!
But they say God is with us all along.
Is this understanding of mine wrong ?

Dark clouds and storms scare me
Soothing breeze and showers delight me
But blazing storms are what that possess me
When will the calm embrace me ?
When will calm comfort me ?

Is faith just a source of strength,
To tide over the present suffering ?
Is it not a medicine to what
My noble soul is weathering ?

Will God not act when He is prayed to ,
Called upon and surrendered to ?
Do we need to suffer all that we ought to
Until we are redeemed hitherto ?

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P.S - I would like to write a more cheerful and optimistic piece. Something tells me that the day is not far when I'll do that. :-)

China wants our jobs, too. First it was manufacturing, and now its software! I dint know China was cheaper than India by a whole 40%. And yeah, the US really knows what to outsource/offshore to India and what to China.

Cloud of solar gas strikes our planet. Strangely, I felt it was hotter than usual today. Does that have anything to do with this intensified solar activity ?

The Concorde is retired. A step backward ?

The news on the Solar Flare, added with the Concorde story and the AirFrame (Michael Crichton) that I read over the weekend are giving me the creeps. Dunno why but too much of flying stuff or space stuff are not for me. It makes my imagination run wild and I end up having nightmares on free falls and cosmic destruction !

Satellites Help Slash Car Thefts. Trakker - No spelling mistake this !

Statements so light. Less gold for less currency.

I had been to the temple for the evening "seva". Amidst the clatter of the cymbals, reverberation of the percussions, echo of the bugles, the frenzy crowd and the electrifying aura, I felt the silence from within. Peace inside, resonance and clatter outside. It dint feel strange either.

Sorrow is real. God seems closer then.

They hurt, they ridicule,
They praise, they flatter.
To life, they mean a trifle,
To the soul, they do not matter.